Peek-a-boo: Happiness

Let’s face the fact: Socializing distracts me from doing what I love doing(my work, building things, minding my own business). Then why waste time when you could just spend time on your own? YOLO! Spend it with yourself — the most amazing person on the planet Earth. Probably the whole universe, but there is a possibility of the parallel universes’. So, I can’t be sure. Anyway, I mean, that is the reason I write blog posts. Because I get to think for myself. I get to think what I write here is good for me or not. I get to judge myself. I get to understand more about myself. I get to see the thinking pattern of myself. It’s all about me. Well then, if it’s all about me, why do I need to write a blog and publish it? Why not just write these things in a diary, instead? Well, first of all, diaries are boring. I have to, write in it. I don’t like that. I can’t customize text, sometimes, I can’t even read whatever I write. My handwriting is the worst. So, I have adopted technology… I have these sweet fonts for me. It’s pretty cool. Hey, by the way, I do have a digital Diary and I do write a lot of things in it.. not every day but at least three times a week.

Anyway, I want to talk about happiness now. Well, I have read this particular thing from somewhere…

Uh, I remember it now… It’s this idiot here:

I remember my-idiot-self watching this movie few years ago and wondering at the end, is that what actual happiness is? Well, I just believed it.. because that’s what they desperately tried to prove in this ENTIRE movie! I was a kid. And an idiot. I believed it without a second thought.

Well, even now, most grown ups think the same. I wish they knew some basic patterns of their own brain. Well, get it: It’s simply your own ego people. That’s what it is. It’s ego satisfaction, not ‘happiness’. This is why I hate ‘normal’. It’s just that, it’s simply boring. There is no point with/for ‘normal’.

For those who are lonely, having someone to share is happiness. For those who have bad company, being alone is happiness. For those who love adventures, exploring new places is happiness. For those who love learning, reading books is happiness. For those who love socializing, partying is probably their happiness. For those who love working, working is happiness. For those who love helping others, helping others is happiness. For those who love creating things, creating things is happiness. For those who love traveling, traveling is happiness. For those who love nature, being in nature is happiness. For those who love music, listening to music is happiness. For those who love art, creating or viewing art is happiness. For those who love sports, playing or watching sports is happiness.

There’s no ONE source of happiness for everybody, it’s different in your situation, phase of life. So understand yourself, find what brings happiness. Discovering happiness is a journey into yourself.

Anyway, the point is, I don’t have to be WITH people or share moments with people to enjoy life. Enjoyment is a personal preference and movies like these mislead. And people watching movies like these and believing them, are simply not enough open minded to know what they ACTUALLY enjoy in their life. Instead, it’s sad, they just pretend to be happy- their entire life! It’s not sad because they pretend in front of others. It’s sad because they pretend themselves. They lie themselves. Without even a tiny clue. Sad because, they don’t realize the real value of life, instead they live inside a dream. A dream that this society has cast on them. A dream that literally trains people to laugh, to enjoy, to work, even to be passionate about somethings. It’s very hard to realize- none of that brings happiness. Happiness is more than a feeling. Living is more than a feeling, more than an experience itself. There IS meaning for life. It’s a cliche, nowadays. To find that meaning, know the REAL you. When I say real, literally, you have to.. nah- you SHOULD doubt yourself. There is 98.. nah- 100% chance that you don’t know yourself. Just stop, STOP believing what you are and ask the hard question: who you really are within? Reply takes time… so stay with the question. Remember, if the answer is easy, then it’s not correct. Because let’s face it, if it was easy, you would have had that long ago. So, again, just stay with the question. Even if you REALLY think you have the answer, loop it back. STAY WITH THE QUESTION. JUST STAY THERE. Because..

..Meaning deserves the effort. Without that effort, you end up with wooshy-washy conclusions of wooshy-washy people. Even though conclusions are not from wooshy-washy people, there is a great chance you perceive them as wooshy-washy conclusions for yourself because right now, your thinking level is wooshy-washy and you keep believing that… for the heck of it… there are billions of possibilities.. there are just too many possibilities. I can’t explain every possibility. Point is, learn to observe and know the patterns of your own observations, For that you need to know yourself and for that, you need to be honest and you need to spend a lot of time with yourself.

Uh, I have gotta end it here, innit? It’s pretty big now. Alright! Catch ya some other time. Have good time.

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